But also have of AIDS
HIV negative virus fear
AIDS is a very distant, nouns, suddenly so close to me, call a person to believe again.
I have three tickets AIDS, whole is a negative sheets. The assured start life, but I can not do it, because from the signs, I now is in acute infection, this time there will be many symptoms, but not to the hospital assay is absolutely real results.
I in March this year in April, had two high-risk sexual behavior, bring suit, is the first time in the water, the second is the small store on the roadside. May also do a tattoo, now unable to determine what times infection. From the perspective of the assay, march, but can not completely. All of that is safe, actually play their own comfort own home, some things really can't go now, I regret to have what use?
This is to say, the three negatie result sheets, why am I so sure oneself are infected with AIDS, or say I now following the symptoms
1, first is unknown causes of uninterrupted geothermal, I observed for a long time, some high temperature is always better than others. But with mild headache
2 this morning, diarrhea, just pull it four times, and into the water.
3, arthralgia, started from the night before shoulder pain, now spread to left elbow.
4, muscle aches, left crus muscle reoccupy hand press will be very painful
5, sore throat, not very serious, eat food nor drink water won't have aching feeling
6, anorexia, I this two days to eat things when I used to eat a meal.
7, fatigue, don't move, just lying down.
8, weight loss, how are 147 jins, now 134.
Now these symptoms, still use is over time to do test? It is a process.
I am a very sensitive person, also have some understanding of AIDS in symptomatic, so, I went to a hospital doing the negative, which, from march high-risk sexual behavior has three months, I was relieved, but other symptoms after barrage. Then two consecutive tests, the feeling is from hope to despair to hope to despair. But now, I have already no longer any hope that, just one week, changed my life, let I experienced several quickens feeling, this is a difficult week, I cried, and laughed. Also vowed to restart my life. But now he has no chance.
The only thing I can do now is it all alone in the dark, lonely go on the road, until death, you know that feeling? I no longer feel despair. I only feel sorry for my parents, they are ordinary workers, I, I, this is not easy, and they all see me to make some achievements, but... I want to come now, work in these two years, I have had and unsuspecting target in the edge of the precipice. But literally Regrets ah...
I now regret, but there are two women because of guilt, because I could face misfortune, I just pray god could leave the two innocent people, I don't want to become criminals...
I live in chengdu, maybe you are the city's people, maybe you think too far from illness, but you are wrong, because of the evil is small, be sure to JieShenZiHao ah.
Friends tell me, 24 hours a day, worry, is 24 hours, happy, and 24 hours. That's because they don't know me. I won't tell them, but I will carefully to protect them from me.
Now I fear most is not in the virus, I know they have become a part of my body. I fear most is not know what to do, because no authoritative department of test results, I get drugs and any treatment, although these can play delaying action, but I hope I get due attention. I don't even know how to regulate their diet and lifestyle, I can wander in every place, units and between the virus is crazy about the destruction of the immune system, and I hope to have the relevant experts at the situation, I saw give me some advice.
Mistakes will get punished, maybe you had today, but tomorrow? Tomorrow? Do a law-abiding moral man
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